Today is February 18th. It was 33 years ago that my mom gave birth to and lost my 2 brothers on the same day. They were born too early to survive in this world. I have always known it was hard on my mom, hard on both of my parents. I have always felt pain for my mom every year when she cannot help but relive that day. I felt pain because I knew she was experiencing pain, not because I knew how it felt.
Being someone who has had difficulty getting pregnant, I told her I now feel her pain out of experience, experience in a different way. She grieves the loss of what she had and lost. I grieve for what I don’t yet have. We both grieve. I understand more fully and I feel her pain even more.
For those who have lost children, had miscarriages, or have unmet longings like me, know that I am thinking of you today and praying for your pain.
I just wanted to share that today. Much love ?
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